well it's been a long long day and finally, it's almost over- i have work in just 7 hours. i had swiss chalet delivered and i'm watching danny deckchair. i think i learned a lot today about what i want from myself in the future and how i've depended on certain people for support. but when those people leave your life and the support is gone you just have to learn to pick yourself back up again.

i'm very conflicted at the moment about what i'm going to be doing in the next five years. a lot of opportunities stand in front of me and i just have to decide which path to take.

the hard part is that i dont think any of those paths are ever going to come together again.

sigh.
bedtime.